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Friday, April 07, 2006

The choice of Italian or Chinese for dinner!

It’s not new to me for people to tell me that I’m living my life irresponsibly, that my choices of work and living are extremely unstable and that I would not survive for long swimming against the social current, I don’t usually give those people the time of day, especially when I know them and know that although they are preaching their vision of a content and stable life they themselves are irrevocably miserable.
Things were slightly different today though; I had decided a couple of weeks ago that I would conduct an experiment in which I would allow myself to tolerate people more even when they are throwing their usual clichés at me, I have decided that I should always question my belief in my direction because if I didn’t I would end up making my choices blindly, nothing is definite in this life and a constant check up on my ideological state is a healthy thing, so I sat through a lecture from a certain someone who assured me that I am living in a dream world and that my choice to work in performing music in this part of the world is a sure way to become a social outcast and end up broke, alone and miserable.
I would be stupid to assume that our society is tolerant of people like me who chose what is considered a highly alternative way of life, music is not an extremely respectable field to work in and the local market for many reasons is simply too small to generate enough stable income to support someone who chooses to live my life style. All this considered, I need to go through this person’s conclusions of how my life would end up if I kept doing what I am doing now.
Will I become a social outcast? By a social outcast what was meant is simple: no one would allow their daughter to marry me! Here’s a question: me being who I am, do I want to marry someone who would resign her desire to be with me to the short sightedness and groundless beliefs of someone else especially if she gets to really know me?
Will I end up broke? It’s a possibility, yet I am a capable and young man, determined and working very hard, I don’t have inhibitions and always consider all my choices and know how to invest my talent in different directions, money has not proven a serious issue yet in my life and I’m content with what I have. So I believe that I have as much a chance to be financially sound as the next person even if I don’t come from a rich family.
Will I be alone? Loneliness? I am very used to loneliness no matter how many people surround me, it has always been the way and I really doubt it would change if became a lawyer or a journalist.
Will I end up miserable? I have made a choice to make a living doing what I enjoy most in my life, I wake up everyday with a renewed sense of motivation and excitement and go to work like a child goes to an amusement park! How many people can claim to be the same?
The truth is, I don’t really believe that I am swimming against the current, what I do makes so much sense to me that I almost firmly believe that it is almost everyone else who is swimming against the current and I am one of the few people who have lives that make sense to them!
I may be taking a risk, a big one at that, but hey! It is said that most men live their lives in silent desperation, I honestly don’t! I am truly content in most areas of my life especially those areas connected to what I do and who I am, so isn’t that an indication that I’m choosing the right path for myself? Why on earth should I seek my happiness and success through means that have proved to be disastrous failures so many times in front of my eyes?!

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