Let the shrew go tame herself!

I dragged myself through the mire today, but at the end I got to the other side. I was reminded of the cruelty humans are capable of and the patience today, and at the end of the day, I am proud of myself for being able to remain myself.
Reasons are thrown in our path and signs of many colors with directions and instructions which we chose to follow or discard, at the end of the day we can not but accept that our motion has carried us to the place where we ended up whether we wanted to end up there or not. If we chose not to accept this we sleep with a heavy heart, and I don’t like sleeping with a heavy heart.
I had a big struggle in my head today between choice and the modern social epidemic that can be referred to as the illusion of choice, I told myself that I am a victim of a life more complicated because I have been driven to believe that I have numerous choices that are designed to keep me too busy from actually considering my real choices.
While I am perfectly aware of the existence of this epidemic, I need to stop bullshiting myself into believing that I am a victim of it; I know who I am, I know what I want and I don’t like neither McDonalds nor Burger King, in other words this crap don’t fly with me, what is happening is that sometimes I don’t get what I want, and it needs to be ok for me not to get what I want… hell! Maybe what I want is probably not good for me anyway!
Patience is always the key for deliverance and no battle is lost if one lives to fight another day, I realize that I’m throwing clichés around today, but the thing with over used phrases of wisdom is that they become over used because they are true, it is only in our rebellious childhood that we discard them as empty words, so, if you still discard such phrases you hear everyday as empty words there’s a good chance that you are still a child with little experience and less wisdom and my advice to you is another couple of cliché: get over yourself and wake up and smell the roses!
The most aggressive teacher is experience, another more subtle teacher is observation. While the majority of people learn the ways of life through experience (trial and error) only a few are capable of learning through observation because one can never learn from observing other people if one cant refrain from judgment, and humans are judgmental fuckers by nature, but imagine how much you can learn if you learn from both your mistakes and other people’s mistakes at the same time?
At the end of this rambling session I would like to add this: if you are not enjoying it then:
1- You shouldn’t be doing it.
2- No matter what you think, you always have the choice not to do it.
3- Life is not complicated; it’s you who’s the idiot!